An Easy Update.

Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
haha

Ever had a near death experience?
probably.

Where’s your cell phone?
under my arm as I'm typing.

What is the last thing you thought about?
A very awkward thing, relationship that just started between two close friends.

Do you regret anything?
Kind of not enough to think twice about.

If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell?
The father.

What are you going to do this weekend?
Um idk just chill out seeing how all break has been busy.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
texting her right now

Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
why would I rather be jealous then getting revenge? That's a stupid questions.

Would you curse in front of your parents?
Nope :)

What kind of camera do you have?
HP thing. idk. its a soft baby blue.

Would you rather go to a party or out of town?
Depends on who's where.

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
Kind of but I think it will work out.

When was the last time you held someone’s hand?
Walked my brother across the street yesterday. jk. Two nights ago, nothing serious.

Who can you tell everything to?
My cousin.

Can you play guitar hero?
I'm a beast at it. Not really can do pretty good on Hard.

Is any part of your body sore?
my ass and back and ankles.

Missing someone right now?
yea...

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
Probably

Do you like your phone?
I'm a good critic, but I'm currently pleases with it.

Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex?
Yeah.

Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you?
Maybe?

If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
No idea.

When is your next road trip?
Hopefully soon because I want to go up north.

What did you do last weekend?
hmm... oh yea. Nessa and Jake got dropped off and Adam come over later on Sat. Then Brian came over one Sunday.

Met anyone new in the past week?
I wish.

What do your best friends call you?
Nat or Natalie. No :( No sweet nickname.

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you?
Mi mama

Are you currently fighting with someone?
I don't think so...?

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Yesterday during the game.

Are you mad at someone right now?
I do not remember if I am.

What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
I just deleted the nice one last night crap.

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?
Defiantly my cell phone.

Is there an empty place in your heart?
Kinda

Do you count down the days till anything?
No most the time things change too much to count on things to much except basketball.

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
Kinda not really

Have you ever been called a tease?
Yeah! I have to say more then once...

What are your chances of getting with your crush?
Don't really have any serious one so no chance.

What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend?
MO

Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family?
Yeah.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
Kinda of but I had permission so spread it cuz they didn't want to deal with it.

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
When I restart it to get better signal like once a week.

Do you hate anyone?
Yea...

Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?
Does a hat count or a varsity jacket?

What do you want in your life right now?
I want changes but I'm pleased with it now because the ones that would happen will be negative.

When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
Two days ago.

Did you tell someone something today?
Nope

Do you trust people easily?
Some time I don't trust enough and sometimes too much.

What were you doing at 9pm Friday night?
I opening Christmas presents cuz I had just got home.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
A garage, but no I do not recall a bathroom.

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
To me he is.

Who was the last person to call you?
Brandon Swetland

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Water

When is the last time you cried?
Not too long ago but don't remember why or when.

Are you scared of spiders?
huge ones.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
I don't think I would.

Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
YEAH

Last person you drove with in a car?
mi madre

What’s irritating you right now?
7 year olds

What radio station(s) do you listen to?
102.9 or 94.1

Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes afraid of what in the dark

Are you listening to music right now?
no

Do you like Chinese food?
yes and it sound realllly good right now seeing how I haven't eaten yet today.

What is the last movie you saw in theaters?
New Moon for a second time. 2012 before that tho.

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
Right now I'm good.

Do you get distracted easily?
YEAH. Like I'm having trouble doing this and texting at the same time.

First time you kissed the last person you kissed?
uhhh... you want a date? I couldn't give you that.

Was this the best year of your life?
HELL FUCKING NO (this summer rocked)

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive

Are you jealous of someone?
Not really

What last made you laugh the hardest?
My mom and Adam

Do you flirt a lot?
I'm told I do.

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah.

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
I don't think I've dreamed of death before.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Like beging of the summer my mom bro nessa and dad.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeahhh lol

Who was the last person that made you feel safe, why?
That's a tough one.

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
Not really.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
He had a weak heart okay?

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
When I am one I don't think I'm that bad, but what do I know?

What did you do yesterday?
Woke up ate took a nap watched tv bit farewell to my cosuins then played bball.

Have you ever dated Someone Older Than You?
Only ever dated older guys lol

What time did you go to bed at and when did you awake?
2ish am - 11ish am

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
kinda of

Believe in love at first sight?
No. That's a phrase that goes against everything about not judging a book by it's cover.

So there you go I found that off of some guys Facebook so I took it. It's a quick update for you. My head is so mixed up right now I can't really sit and write anything constructive. Basically fighting with my dad, Hanging with my best friends, playing basketball, and dealing with 7 year olds who have cell phone but don't have the part of the brain that has reasoning.

So that's about it. I was doodling last nigh so I'm ganna scan it and post it because I think that'll look cool. Warning: Hearing about Adam and Nessa talking about deciding to take the 'risk of fucking everything thing up', it dug up a lot of old memories that I had mentally packed away in a box. I know weird but it works, except last night because it was as if a hole was punched in the top of it. The lid wasn't taken off though because only bits and pieces were coming out.

~Nat

Brian just left again he came over before and after practice lol. Nessa and Jake are over.

Gotta love the random things my brother does at 9:30 p.m. such as play the recorder, make monkey noices for half an hour, or dress up as random sport players.

Snow

Winter vacation officially started today and I got up at 11:45 a.m. I know horrible! I was suppose to run today... oops. I just laid down on the couch under my mom's giant blue jean quilt and finished my book. A lazy day.

I just went and read the last post I made on my old blog and I nearly choked on my gum over some of the things I said. They were all true, but I was so blunt. I guess I was still raw and unguarded, I was hurt over letting my guard down. I guess now I'm still trying to find a happy medium. I can remember back to the 6th grade when I would stay in my room and I had about two friends and everything was password protected and a secret. Taking a look now I am more outgoing but I'm closing in in someways, skipping over the bigger things.

I have little to say today. Guess I just have to much time to think and I can't quite filter it all like I thought myself to do this summer.

Nat

Breath in, take it slow, never look back, and let the haters fall in step behind you.

I just finished reading My Sister's Keeper. It would have been a lot better if anyone that found out I was reading it hadn't given away details.

Have you ever had those days where everything has you on the brink of crying? Then once you brid good night to everyone, hear your door click shut, swifty click the light off so the room if filled with darkness, and let your cheeck touch the pillow, and now that you are surrounded by darkness it is actually comforting, you let out the sobs you been holding in. When the sun comes up in the morning no one thinks any different of you because only you and God know about your plees for change in the darkness the night before.

T.G.I.S.

Thank God It's Saturday.

This was a long week. I do not think I hand more the 6 hours in one night. I know that's horrible. My bones were just acing with tiredness all week. On a good note I finished my book. It was quite different, The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult. It was one of those books where you find a book you really want to read, but it's checked out so you grab another one by that author. I finished in it a week, returned it Wednesday and got My Sister's Keeper. I'm about a quarter of the way into it now.

Now I will go back to what I'm sure ALL my reading (joking) want to know about, my post from October 10th. I joined the basketball team. I made it my the tips on my finger nails. I started training back in October twice a week. I was going to 1 on 1 with the Varisity coach and assistant coach on Tuesdays and on Thursdays I was going to conditioning with girls that were planning on trying out. I had been running all summer with the thought in the back of me head. I tried out on November 9th-10th. It was a back-braking practice both days. To tell you the truth in my head in every step I took each day in those two hour pain practices I was second guessing every choice I had made to get myself to that point. I was telling myself that I no longer wanted that, that I didn't want to be on the team, I couldn't take 4 months of that. I didn't stop putting my best effort in. By Tuesday night, I was drained. I didn't give a fuck if I made the team or not. I wasn't nervous the slightest bit, until it was my turn to go sit between Coach Faber and Coach Rubing. At the point Amber had gone before me and had informed me that she hadn't made it. They told me about how they had talked and talked about wither or not I should be on the team due to the fact that I hadn't played in years and the other girls had. That they could tell I had talent I just need to sharpen again. They said if I was on the team there wouldn't one on one, that I wouldn't get a lot of playing time, and that there will be some games that I don't get in at all, but as I got better I would play more often. Then Coach Faber asked me if knowing all of that if wanted to me on the team. My hands were shaking when I told me yes. As I stood up they told me jokingly no boys. I had just started dating Levi the night before so a smile filled my face and practically skipped back to the gym door where Mckeena and Christy had cracked the door to see me coming. And that's how I got myself the Grass Lake High School JV Girls Basketball team my sophomore year. Now we stand 4-0, with my season total of 4 points. My hands started shaking again just thinking of it.

Levi was short lived. It was real and it was a relationship but it wasn't a real relationship. All it did was cause me to get a few scratch on my reputation and cause everyone in the school to get there panties in a wrinkle over the odd match. It reminds me of a time with Trevor when he told me about his mom asking him if he like me or the idea of me, and how he asked me the same question and I knew the answer right way because I too had thought of it before. Levi, was the the guy that was a jerk all the time but when it came to you he softened right up and was quiet and not as confident. The guy that said good morning and good night to you, who was a true country boy and was a total hard ass. I liked the idea of Levi, not Levi.

I have all these new things in my life. Yet some night I want the old.

Just had the freakiest dream ever. It starts out me getting a pass at half court from larissa out of our even press break, a bounce pass around the red girl from Hanover. Then I dribble it down and go to the left, reverse dribble, and shot from the left elbow. I'm fouled and I fall to the ground, a girl falling back from going for the rebound lands right on top of my left arm. Stomps it with her left foot, snaps it dead center between my wrist and eblow. I let out a loud 'FFFU' but don't finih it. Mark Mata and Wes Potts stand in the student section 5 rows from the bottom, they are waiting to see if I'm going to get up. It was very vivid... but I have no need to worry about it because I won't even see any court time at all in the game agaisnt Hanover on Friday.

I have it set up now so I can blog from my phone. I never have time to get on the computer now due to basketball 5 nights a week, so I can text it now. Cool? I know. Right now with this post I am testing to see if long texts post as two different posts on the blog. Mwahahaha! Now I can rant to blogger.com from my phone. Trust me sometime I just sit there waiting before dinner thinking of things I could post to let out some steam, now I can.
(|0|) Idk what that is NAT

Testing my blog from my phone.