We Are Freaks

So guess where I went tonight... Wrong... Wrong... Wrong again. Trevor Murray's house. I know! We called up his mom to take over the book worms we make for her classes and we went over to drop them off. His mom deiced we were going to have ice cream so she left my bother, Trev, and Me alone, and went to Frank's with my mom. We had fun. We had ice cream sundaes. Then my brother and him played PS3 and I sat between them... I played keep away with his hat. :) We flirted like mad while we played NBA and NHL. He wasn't even paying attention to the NBA game and got beat by ten to my brother... He had been talking with me. :)

I text him when we got home saying we got home alive, we talked about stuff, but I think he fell asleep. He keeps saying he was coming over tomorrow for a hair cut... I hope so. ;) I'm babysitting Billoli's brother at 2, so I told him before then. I hope he seriously does. I'm falling for that boy again.

Billy Billoli

I have sinned. It's bitter sweet. I know I should not me be thinking this but I can't help it. Billoli is talking to someone... and it's got me all hyper. I mentioned to him that I would take that boy back in a heartbeat and he said 'don't do anything stupid'. All because I was talking about being alone on Valentine's Day. I love my neighbor. We're going to do track together, only if he parents okay it though... So well see. 

I hyper now. I should not be getting me hopes up, but it's put me in this great mood. So if I get a little hurt well at least I go a few things accomplished while I am in this mood.

~Natalie

Conversations

Have you ever been vacuuming or washing the dishes, those things you do and zone out and start thinking of conversations you would want to have with someone? Conversations where it's just the two of you, and you have every word planned out. It's almost like you have this little scene your creating where it's the two of you in a room with your backs to a locked door. Where you start off on different sides of the room, then one of you grows a pair and makes a smart remark and you slowly start getting closer. Then you both just sit there not looking at each other with your heads rested again the cool wooden door and each sentence said is just out there, not necessarily to the person directly but there the only one there so in a way you said it for only them to hear.

I day dream a lot with the what if's that are manufactured in my head each day. I guess you could say I'm lonely in a way kind of in the in-between I don't really like any one but I don't not like anyone. It sucks. More so because I got my hopes up, but I'll be over it by next week.

I was thinking today how I just ramble on in my head during the day thinking 'this would sound good on my blog' and how cool a video blog would be. I also thought how cool it would be too have readers. HAHA funny, I'm content with talking to no one it fulfills the need just fine. Plus I don't think I would want to hear the negative, because with every positive there's a negative comment too.

-Nat