Now I remember how I lost my weight. I didn't eat. This dawned on my a few days ago. My reasoning had been to improve my image in hope he would take me back. But yesterday after that phone call in the kitchen, I knew it was May 30, 2009 the day my daddy didnt come home, that had truely changed me. Now every moment on has changed me as well.

It's been a rough two days.

~nat